i am at the point where i feel i am so lost right now... there was so much going on in my mind, but i cant put it in words.... how can i get advice from others if i cant even describe it? i am sinking deeper and deeper.

god... i am so tired today... i worked from 11:30am-10m... gosh... too tired... plus i had shitty slee in the last few days... :( i dont know what's happend ...haha... anyways... i spent the whole night to clean my house the other night... so it looks kind of clean now... at least not messy haha... and i cleaned my clothest too... :) being a good girl...lol... (like always) haha...

My piggie bank is getting so heavy... haha... I've been saving it since this Jan... So i guess i can use this to buy a new camera for myslef now... I NEED A CAMERA!! :P By the way, Mikey made a piggie bank for me too... haha... so nice... and i think it looks good with the letter's on it! :P but still need find a way to put it on for real.! :P

总有一些时候，总有一些事情会蓦然浮上心头。 醒着的时候，可以努力转移注意力，努力快乐，可在梦里，却是躲不过，梦里的心伤，也是一样地疼。